I got up this morning, fed my children, and then rallied everyone together for devotions in the family room. The topic for the day was "Defiance". I use a great little booklet called, "Wise Words For Moms," as a guide. Each child has scripture references that they look up and we all discuss the topic... things we need to "put off" and then the things we need to "put on", as it relates to that topic. So, being that we are going to put off defiance, we need to put on submission.
Hooray for this topic, Amen?!
Everyone participated and shared their examples and we all prayed and went off to do schoolwork.
It went downhill from there.
In a big way.
I'll leave it at that.
On top of the behaviors that I dealt with all morning long, miss Av is not feeling well.
As I laid in bed with Averleigh to try to get her to sleep at nap time, a sadness rushed over me that I've never felt before.
In this broken world we live in, I will never have enough of me to spend abundantly on my children.
I laid next to her sweet little smiling face; nose to nose. She kept giving me kisses; loving that she had me all to herself... And all I could picture was how awesome it would be if I could raise my kids in heaven... In a perfect world.
But I know that God uses ALL THINGS for good, for those who love HIM.
Even these hard days. Even in my weakness and my sinfulness.
We long for heaven because this is not our home and our souls know it. We long for something we don't even know because the Spirit of God is in us.
I ache for the day when I am whole; when I am free from myself.
He is so good, isn't He? He is constant. He is sovereign.
He will never leave us.
We are His.
We never walk alone.
Thank you, Jesus...
Blessings,
Rebecca
"We do not battle the flesh...but the principalities of darkness." I'm with you, friend. I have come to know that the more we try to step out and honor the Lord, the more the enemy attacks. And since you're not only discipling your children, but also adopting...you're obviously upsetting the "dark side." You can do it, friend, with God's help!!
ReplyDeleteAmen on your topic - and yeah on the rest - but it helps knowing that one day we'll get our wish!
ReplyDeletehugs - aus and co.
Amen! Thank you, Jesus, that we are never alone.
ReplyDeleteRebecca, what a great post and so needed for me this morning as I watch my home schooler sleep on the sofa and me not wanting to wake him up cause I have too much work to do! Sigh... I crave that kind of time with my kids and it is so hard to come by these days. Thank you for reminding me of what is important!
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