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| Here is our friend, and children's coordinator, Jen introducing us and poking a jab at Alex... Hence the silly look on his face:) |
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| Somehow I was able to put together a coherent thought without crying... |
Last Sunday we dedicated our 2 new girls to our church. We were given the opportunity to share a brief thank you to our church family for the love they've shown to us during our adoption process and upon returning home. We are so thankful and so very blessed. We LOVE our church family.
Please pray for us. Matt and I are in constant conversation and prayer these days over some discouraging things going on with our children. On the surface we are doing amazingly well. We know we are blessed and our new girls really are doing so very well. Our marriage is stronger and better than ever. But underneath, we are struggling to find peace and harmony with our children. Our eldest is going through some hard growing pains. He is pretty miserable these days. On the flip side, I found him tucking the little girls into bed tonight... He had Abby in his arms, telling her how much he loved her and hugging her tight. I told him that one day he will make a terrific father. He's so tender and protective. Please pray for wisdom... For Alex... and for Matt & I to lead him with grace and truth. It's SO hard.
Our other issues are just typical... but still very draining... mostly because we have a large family and it seems like we are constantly putting out little fires all day long. My energy level is low and I fight the urge to give in to wallowing in the misery almost hourly, sometimes:)
We have GREAT moments. But they are short-lived. Today we woke up and had to get Ashlyn out of a funk she'd been in since the night before, cleaned up so the cleaning ladies could clean, and then headed out to the park as a family for a picnic. We all sat down at a nice quiet park, ate lunch in complete harmony, and really enjoyed it. Then Matt decided to take Ashlyn & Aidan for a walk by the lake to look for gators... No sooner had he walked away, but Alex was moaning about not wanting Ansley to go with us to the youth event at church this weekend and she overheard him and started whining about not wanting to stay home with the babysitter... Back and forth it went. Meanwhile, Abby and Averleigh were wandering around and needing to go to the bathroom. Upon entering the bathroom, I put each of the little girls on a potty and then picked one for myself. I warned Averleigh not to get down and leave the bathroom. Wanna guess what happened? Yep, she did. Made me so mad...
Why?! Why did she do it? I have no idea... My guess is because she wants for her mother to lose her mind. Because that's what it feels like most of the time. Did I mention that both of the little girls spilled their milk at breakfast this morning too? Yep, they did. One of them did it on accident. The other did not. Then as I was cleaning it up, one of them decided to take a seat on top of the table... Yeah, not so funny when it's got cleaner all over it and said child has very sensitive skin. But I can handle those little trials... It's just that when you have little trial after little trial pile up and then big trial comes your way.... AHHHHHH!!!!
So, there ya have it.
I'm going to go to bed now...
Tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it yet.
Blessings,
Rebecca
Good morning Rebecca - wish I had a "real" suggestion for you - but I don't know that I do...suffice to say that while I don't know "how" to fix it I am confident in saying that it will "fix itself"! Time - and the patience of Job - and it will level out!
ReplyDeleteAs for Alex - oh yeah the angst - he could be my Carl...trust in him - but in yourself too...it's the best and worst time in his life!
hugs and prayers for all y'all -
aus and co.
For a while, ok even still, when someone spills their water at the dinner table someone says, "It's dinner time!" Because at least once a day a water cup is spilled. So it must be meal time when something is spilled. When you have that many kids I guess the odds increase! :)
ReplyDeleteAdoption for me has been a major rollercoaster of emotions. Add to that the hormones of having 2 babies and well, you can imagine. I think the worst part is feeling guilty over any and everything.
I'm not going to throw out some random advice or tell you God is in control. You already know that. I'm just glad you have others who have gone before you that truly understand what you are and will go through. It helps so much to know you are not alone and that your situation, although unique because we are all unique, is also normal.
Oh yeah, and I will pray for y'all!
ReplyDeleteI think my comment went poof so I'll try again!
ReplyDeleteStanding with you guys in prayer and faith that God's got this - and each of you - in the palm of His hand.
Tomorrow is a new day, but wanting to send you hugs TODAY!
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